Thursday, March 31, 2011
It's been a while
I wish I was sitting her typing this to say I am doing absolutely amazing! Unfortunatly ED is giving me the evil grin once again and fighting this is getting harder than ever. I had kept symptom use at bay for about 3 weeks straight, but the past week has been an all out ED fest. He has been nasty and miserable, pulling out every trick he can think of to make me feel horrible about myself and who I am as a person. Every day its a battle to tell myself that Im not fat and Im not ugly!! But ED begs to differ. Every day its Jensen why did you eat breakfast, Why would you taste Ady's cheesy baked potatoe, Do you know how many calories that was, and your only allowed to eat vegteables, fruit, and the occasional piece of protein. The tricks are old, but for some reason I am not able to control the urges and fight this nasty voice. Ugh I am so tired of it needless to say.